Go on

Yesterday I had a long talk with Erica about my relationship with Mel. She agreed with me in the debate I've been having for like 6 months with my therapist and mother. My therapist and mother both think that I need to continue being Mel's friend because she is my oldest friend. However this has nothing to do with how much we have both changed, and they don't realize that. I love Mel with all my heart and would do anything for her, but more often than not she makes me want to pull my hair out. And none of it is her fault, we've just changed. We've both severely damaged the relationship. And that's where I'm stuck. I can talk to her about it until I'm blue in the face but that won't change anything between us, except for creating a weird, awkward tension knowing that there are banned subjects of conversation between us, knowing that we're different people now. That shouldn't happen in a friendship, and I don't really know what to do about it.