While having a long conversation about boys last night, my friends seem to believe that there isn't a chance for them if a boy likes me. Even though I don't return those feelings, hahaha. Also, although I really wanted to, I couldn't bring myself to talk to them about how I feel about a boy or two. The only person I've ever felt comfortable sharing that type of thing with is Erica, and that is most likely because she doesn't either know or see these boys everyday. Also, one or two of my friends have had feelings towards Kyle, to which I really want to scream, "He's the farthest thing from a great guy! He toyed with my emotions and then essentially broke my heart and put me in a depression for months! You deserve so much more than that!" But again, I can't bring myself to speak up. They know him, they have classes with him, they make jokes with him in the hallway. And I feel like there's nothing I can do but watch.

I can't talk about my feelings, I suppose, because that would make them real. I would rather discuss and analyze someone else's problems than deal with my own.