I wish that everything would slow down. May is flying by and my Senior Prom is on Thursday. To be honest, I am terrified of what comes after this.

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I dropped the biggest hint about prom to Ryan yesterday and I didn't even mean to. haha I was just being my normal, panicky self when Ciara started talking about prom and I was like, "Let's not talk about it." And Ryan suddenly perked up and was like, "Why?" So Devon and I took turns explaining that it's unnecessary for people to be talking about prom so early in the season, and that I especially didn't want to talk about it because I have to find a boy date and not just Devon, because my mom wants me to. Vikki backed me up even further, saying that her mom said she wouldn't pay for her dress if she didn't go with a boy. I don't think many people believe my story because my mom doesn't seem like that, but Vikki backing it up helped. My mom has been trying to set me up with senior prom dates since the summer before freshman year, it is that big of a deal to her.

Hopefully, the message gets across that yes, he should ask me. I don't want to take advantage of him like that because I don't have any feelings for him but he's my closest straight, single, male friend and I don't have very many options, okay? I hate prom so much.

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The more everyone is beginning to talk about prom, the more nervous I get. I feel pressured to have an actual date (who is male and not my bffs) but, as it happens, I tend to push away all male attention and therefore come up short for a date. Not that I should even be worrying about it now, but Mel is planning it out like it's her wedding day, and I just was never aware that prom was supposed to be like that at all.