thunderbirds are go

I love you, but I'm really just sick of all the shit that you pull. Everyday, it's something new, and you never take any blame for it. You always blow things entirely out of proportion, and dig up old scars that have long since faded. I don't understand why you drag things on for way longer than they were meant to be, even when everyone involved has moved on.

I want to help you understand that we love and care for you, and your constant worrying is unneccessary. These are your screw ups, not ours, and you need to fix them, not us.

Love,

No school again tomorrow. (: Half of the town lost power, thanks to an awesome wind & ice storm.

I miss my friends.

Winter

First snow day of the year! :) After a field trip to the MFA yesterday, and a day off today, I feel very refreshed.

Cause I want you back, I want you back.

Only two more weeks until Christmas vacation! I'm slowly getting over my cold, which has been elongated because all of my friends have the same thing, and we keep passing around our germs to each other. For now, all I have is a bad cough.

Lately I've been bipolar and unmotivated. I need to get my butt into gear before I get too lazy and I see my grades start to plummet.

Holding your hand through this

I think you're my friend. Just that. Both of you.

I like our relationship the way it is, so please don't ruin it for me. I think its cute your friends think we like each other, as long as it's innocent. I'm not going to put up with any more people trying to get me to go out with you. I just went through that, and I have no desire to put up with it a second time.

We've known each other for three years now. I don't want to get hurt like I did last year; people are still unsure about bringing him up in front of me. You were one of the few who saw our relationship for what it really was. Do not make the same mistake he did.

leave room in your heart for someone

I haven't posted on this in a while, oops. Life has been good for the most part, although I'm slowly starting to panic about the future. I don't know where I want to college, I can't decide on a major, and my SATs are on Saturday, for which I haven't studied at all. I'm really not looking forward to anything right now.

I've also lately dug myself so deep into British pop culture that I almost don't feel like an American, haha. I've been religiously watching Skins, Doctor Who, Robin Hood, and Nevermind the Buzzcocks, just to name a few shows. I've had McFly, Busted, Son of Dork, the Kooks, Babyshambles, and Mark Ronson playing on my iPod nonstop. I've become well aquainted with the UK Top 40 charts, and an impossible amount of British celebrities. I'm glad that I have a group of friends who share this strange obsession, and we can all fangirl over all of our favorites while our classmates stare at us like we're insane. And, in a way, we are. :)

Also, I've managed to get sick again. :( I've been taking generic cold medicine, which takes care of my runny nose, but I still have a sore throat that my constant chattering doesn't help soothe. I can't comfort it with anything, which is highly annoying.

I've started to become closer with my school friends, which makes my Mom unbelievably happy. I used to only hang out with my two best friends, but now I'm expanding my social group, and honestly, it feels amazing. Having a group of friends who you can actually see every day. I've only had that twice before, and even then, they weren't as strong as our group. I actually share things in common with my school friends, and it's amazing. I used to think nearly everyone at my school were horrible people in one way or another, but I think I've finally found the good bunch. :) I still love my two best friends, but I'm learning to make room for everyone in my life. I'm so glad that I have my best friends and a group of good friends.

And finally, the last update I have is in the reading department. In English class, we've started to read In the Time of the Butterflies, by Julia Alvarez. It really is a good book, I'm over halfway done and I like it for the most part. It's about four sisters who were the national heroines of the Dominican Revolution, when they overtook their dictator in the '60s. The book is set up so each section of the book has four chapters, one in each sister's point of view. I like all of the sisters except for Dede, and most of my class agrees. We find her painfully boring. :/