Back in June

I've been sick with either regular flu or swine flu for the past few days, and it doesn't show any signs of release. I've been drinking rediculous amounts of tea and TheraFlu. I just wish my nose wasn't so cold and I could breathe properly. :(

Also, I talked to Jennings last week and he suggested that instead of going into a creative writing major, I go in as English and then do Creative Writing in grad school. It's a good idea, and I understand why it's a good idea, I just dont know if I want to spend the extra time or money I don't have on grad school. It would mean starting my college search all over, which I am already way too far in. I don't know, I have to consider it.

P.S. I miss Block Island.

Post graduation

Today was just a plain horrible day. I was sick, dealing with shit I didn't want to deal with, along with other stuff.

I realized that I need to increase my dosage of anti anxiety, because although I no longer stress over little things, I still stress a lot over the big things (today being an excellent example of that). I realized that I still put myself down in a different way than before, and that not everything is as bright and happy as I thought it was.

Now I'm going to go upstairs and crawl into bed.

On your convenience

Today was my first day back to school since Friday, when I got dismissed. I've been very sick the past few days, and today didn't do anything to help speed up my recovery. Still, I had to be there. I still feel like I'm dying. :(

On the other hand, Adventure Day is tomorrow. :)

Going through the motions

Currently battling a strange illness, I got dismissed at noon from school yesterday by my neighbor. She said I had a fever, which would explain my delirious state while I was at school. I felt like a zombie. Last night I didn't feel any better; I kept waking up and was generally restless. Thank goodness for weekends.

In other news, my counselor and I came to the conclusion that one of my closest friends tends to take advantage of me, whether she knows it or not. The terminoligy used was "she takes more than she gives". I don't really know how to go about handling the situation; I can't just push her out of my life, because she's my best friend. Whenever this has happened in the past I just tend to stop being friends with them, but in this case that's not an option.

leave room in your heart for someone

I haven't posted on this in a while, oops. Life has been good for the most part, although I'm slowly starting to panic about the future. I don't know where I want to college, I can't decide on a major, and my SATs are on Saturday, for which I haven't studied at all. I'm really not looking forward to anything right now.

I've also lately dug myself so deep into British pop culture that I almost don't feel like an American, haha. I've been religiously watching Skins, Doctor Who, Robin Hood, and Nevermind the Buzzcocks, just to name a few shows. I've had McFly, Busted, Son of Dork, the Kooks, Babyshambles, and Mark Ronson playing on my iPod nonstop. I've become well aquainted with the UK Top 40 charts, and an impossible amount of British celebrities. I'm glad that I have a group of friends who share this strange obsession, and we can all fangirl over all of our favorites while our classmates stare at us like we're insane. And, in a way, we are. :)

Also, I've managed to get sick again. :( I've been taking generic cold medicine, which takes care of my runny nose, but I still have a sore throat that my constant chattering doesn't help soothe. I can't comfort it with anything, which is highly annoying.

I've started to become closer with my school friends, which makes my Mom unbelievably happy. I used to only hang out with my two best friends, but now I'm expanding my social group, and honestly, it feels amazing. Having a group of friends who you can actually see every day. I've only had that twice before, and even then, they weren't as strong as our group. I actually share things in common with my school friends, and it's amazing. I used to think nearly everyone at my school were horrible people in one way or another, but I think I've finally found the good bunch. :) I still love my two best friends, but I'm learning to make room for everyone in my life. I'm so glad that I have my best friends and a group of good friends.

And finally, the last update I have is in the reading department. In English class, we've started to read In the Time of the Butterflies, by Julia Alvarez. It really is a good book, I'm over halfway done and I like it for the most part. It's about four sisters who were the national heroines of the Dominican Revolution, when they overtook their dictator in the '60s. The book is set up so each section of the book has four chapters, one in each sister's point of view. I like all of the sisters except for Dede, and most of my class agrees. We find her painfully boring. :/

Total Sick Count: 2

I will have been in school for a month tomorrow, and already I've been sick twice. I'm going to the dentist today to see if my mysterious fevers on the right side of my face, spontaneous pains in my jaw/ear, and swollen jaw have anything to do with my wisdom tooth. I personally think it's an ear infection, but my mom is determined. I just want some painkillers to make it shut up.