Mission

My new New Years Resolution: to either stop introducing/influencing people to my favorite music, movies, shows, books, things, etc., or to stop letting it get under my skin when I introduce/influence said things to people and they actually enjoy them. Mine is an exclusive club, I don't know why I'm such a snob about it.

I don't know why it bothers me so much. But it's annoying.

Going through the motions

Currently battling a strange illness, I got dismissed at noon from school yesterday by my neighbor. She said I had a fever, which would explain my delirious state while I was at school. I felt like a zombie. Last night I didn't feel any better; I kept waking up and was generally restless. Thank goodness for weekends.

In other news, my counselor and I came to the conclusion that one of my closest friends tends to take advantage of me, whether she knows it or not. The terminoligy used was "she takes more than she gives". I don't really know how to go about handling the situation; I can't just push her out of my life, because she's my best friend. Whenever this has happened in the past I just tend to stop being friends with them, but in this case that's not an option.

Tuna and pickles

I just got back from my first on-road. I was calm and comfortable, I just have a nervous habit of taking one hand off the wheel to play with my wedding ring whenever I drive.

Tomorrow is a half-day (and possibly a snow day!), and afterschool Katie, Devon, and I were supposed to go to Ihop for breakfast. With the snowstorm, that's not going to happen. :(

This week is being spent with my Doctor Who DVDs. I have a ridiculous amount of love for that show. It's going to be so upsetting when Matt Smith starts.

My eyes are bright too

A friend who has previously opposed my obsession with British television finally sat down with me yesterday and watched Doctor Who, Nevermind the Buzzcocks, and Skins. Needless to say, she is now a fan.

I don't mean to pat myself on the back, or anything, but when it comes to entertainment, I'm hardly ever wrong.

I feel sleepy.

Today felt more like a missed opportunity than anything. I could have gone somewhere tonight, and didn't. Instead I drove my drugged-out mother to Target and Marshalls, and got Starbucks and sweatpants.

My two friends who I've grown close to over this year are starting to repeat the mistakes of last year's flame. The thought of him still hurts, and I refuse to put myself through the same kind of pain. I am not going to tolerate it a second time.

Ding, dong, the wicked witch is dead!

Today I stayed home and watched the Inauguration with my cat.

I think the name President Obama has a nice ring to it.

Tall Peppermint Mocha Frappuccino

At 12:30 we made our plans to go to Starbucks afterschool, just because Ciara wanted coffee. So Ciara, Devon, Katie, and I go, and we bring a coffee back to school for Vicki, who was in GSA. I love our spontaneous trips right out of school. :) They make the whole day better, ahaha.

Nostalgic?

Today I saw a freshman at school who looked exactly like Daniel Radcliffe circa the first Harry Potter movie. It was awesome. :)

It's far too early in the daytime

Currently I'm waiting for the water to boil for my dinner. I'm making ziti with chicken, I feel like such a chef! :)

Today I got home from school to find my mother deathly sick in bed. I drove us to my doctor's appointment, and was out of there by 3:30 or so. I drove to Mel's, and we hung out for the first time since November, and watched all four hours of the current season of 24. I love that show, so much, ugh.

So while I'm waiting for dinner, I'm going to do some homework. Thank god I'm staying after school tomorrow for Art Honor Society, I can get help with my English paper. Oi vey. Sometimes I feel like I'm overworking myself, but it's what worked last year to get my butt into gear for MCAS, and I'm hoping it'll work this year for SATs, and college apps. I slightly envy my mom for being so sick. :/

"Four for you, Kevin Jonas! You go, Kevin Jonas!"

The last week made me realize how much closer I've grown to my current friends, and that makes me happy. I've eliminated everyone from my life whose relationships were unhealthy for me, and now for the most part I'm surrounded by good influences. Now all I need to work on are my procrastination habits and my laziness. I really just hate winter.

I think there has been a cease-fire between a close friend and I, and I think (or hope) that we can continue where we left off in our friendship. I miss her lots and lots, and I really hope this is the end of all our petty arguing, fighting, and cold shoulders. I miss my friend.

To make us all fit back together

It bothers me when my weekend routine is distrupted. I don't really care about your date with your girlfriend. I have somewhere to be, too, you know. Failing to tell anyone your plans shouldn't constitute panic on my side of this deal. I shouldn't have to make the calls.

On the up hand, my counselor says that I've become a lot calmer since last year. I no longer rip up Kleenexes, which apparently was a nervous habit of mine.

Don't tell me what's gonna happen next

Today was the first time in three weeks that I've hung out with my friends at lunch. With all the chatter and jokes going around the table, it made me realize how much I love and missed them. :) Hopefully our Doctor Who marathon will be happening soon, I got all four seasons!

Just call it a day

Why is always something with you? Why can't we have a happy, normal relationship? Why does everything we say on the internet not transfer over to real life?

I don't know why you are so afraid to open up to me. I'm your best friend. I'm here for you.

thanks for the memories

Finally, 2008 is over. In some aspects, I'm upset. It's been an exciting, action-packed year, full of new experiences and situations. I've grown a lot, I've met lots of new and amazing people, and I've learned a lot about my friends and the world in general. In other aspects, I'm so glad this year is over. It's been an emotionally and physically exhausting year, full of fights, drama, and nervous breakdowns. The stress I put myself under in 2008 was astounding, and I know I found a lot of inner strength to have to deal with all that. Not to mention the rollercoaster I was on at the beginning of the year, dealing with a certain boy. 2008 saw me through my highest highs and my lowest lows, and although it hasn't been an easy year, it certainly has been one of the most rewarding.

2008 is over, and there's no going back. I'm not going to dwell on the past; I'm going to think about the future and live in the present. Goodbye 2008, it was fun while it lasted.