i'm not bitter

I think the main differences between Fancy New Kara and Old Kara are that I can now accept that people change, that people come in and out of our lives, and that people in Old Kara's life can coexist peacefully with Fancy New Kara's life as our own individual selves. I am surprisingly okay with all of these differences; no one is at fault for liking different things. I just wish other people would accept all of these things.

Rain

Things that make me feel happy:
- Dunkin Donuts
- my best friend
- McFly
- Twilight
- Antony and Danny

This is not a long list.

I'll always come back home

This week has been (and is going to continue to be) very, very busy. Prom is next weekend, and I hardly have anything done. The college search is amping up, and we're starting with college fairs. I have to keep up with all of this (plus life) with a cold. I would just like for my immune system to work, for once. Also, I am concerned with my increasing use of pharmaceuticals.

Spring is just around the corner, and I am on my hands and knees, begging for its arrival.

I breathe in the darkest country road

This past week was very much a rollercoaster for me, not only in situations, but also in hormones and self-esteem. It seems as if I am doing fine, but when I let myself think, numerous things pop up and I just can't handle it. I haven't seen my therapist in over a month, and won't see her until late next week. I am on my last thread.

I would feel so much better if spring was here.

This rotten game we play

I am on paragraph number two of my five paragraph essay for English, due tomorrow. Yay procrastination! I hope that by next year, I will have mastered the skill of completing assignments on time. I am writing this from my mother's laptop, making me wish I had my own back. My laptop has been broken for at least three years. The laptop I'm currently on also makes me want Vista, a little. :(

I've also run into an unusual amount of people while out and about this week. Of course, I didn't talk to them (this is New England), but I did explain my connection to them to my aunt. I've also been noticing the amount of times my airway has been blocked in any given week. It's getting a bit ridiculous.

I have a massive paper due tomorrow, which I didn't even start yet. :) I am the worlds biggest procrastinator, honestly. Today I plan on cleaning the house, going out with my Aunt to the best burger joint in New England, and somehow, by 11:30 PM or so, I will have gotten my paper done.

Also, my first Creative Writing workshop went exceptionally well.

Still blue

All last week was filled with the stress of preparing my mother to leave for her vacation, and although I didn't want her to go, it was too late to do anything about it. Now we're staying with my aunt, and although I love her, the fact that my mother is gone eats at me. What's stranger is that I am not usually this attached to her. Now this week has been off to a bad start, and I have a feeling the rest of the week won't be any better.