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Lately I've been feeling stressed out about schoolwork and after-school activities and friends. For a few weeks at the beginning of the year I did a fabulous job balancing them, but lately I've been having 6-day school weeks and it's brining me down, big time. I've lost so much sleep over the past few weeks, and I just don't have the time to catch up on it. I've been snapping at everyone, mostly my mom and my brother. I've had so many things to do, and it just seems like there is no time to do it. Luckily on Wednesday we have a half-day, and I know my friends are going to ask to hang out but honestly I think I just need some time to myself, for sleep and homework and personal relaxation time.

Also I went to Diane's for the first time in about four months, and it seemed that most of my venting/raging went towards Mel. I've started to unfairly become angry at her, and I've started to just dismiss her problems as inferior to mine. I know it's wrong and that I shouldn't just hate on her for the sake of hating on her but I do and I am going to continue doing it because it makes me feel better. I've started to forget that we have a real relationship and friendship and I feel like she's started to become my enemy. I have a feeling that this is just a phase, and that once I get out all of my raging I'll start caring about her again. I know I will.